I keep coming in and out of good and bad, and I'm tired of feeling unstable. I could repeat myself a thousand times, and write the same things I always say, but it wouldn't change anything, only frustrate me more.
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to double the my dosage of one of my medications. I'm worried.
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I'm also frustrated that I got myself out of the writing habit. Every day for nearly two months, I spent hours a day focusing on my writing, and once I finished my NaNo shit, I stopped. I thought I'd take a break for a few days, maybe a week, and a month and a half later, here I am, not writing at all.
Not even in my journal. It's like I have no new thoughts. It's making me feel so shitty and unimaginative.
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THIS IS NOT FUN OR GOOD OR NICE. I want to hide. :(
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Boo. :( Just commit to it, again. Promise me or Josh or your mom or someone that you will put aside time to write everyday. And I'll promise you that I'll set aside time everyday to work on my research project that is worth over half of my final grade in English this semester- which, by the way, is the only class I need to graduate.
ReplyDeleteLUUUFF.