Sleepy!

I'm tired of apologizing for feeling a certain way. I don't think I'm going to do that anymore.

I was a little bit weepy today at random moments, and I think it all stemmed from having trouble sleeping, which isn't anything new, but it was worse last night. I woke up in a strange mood, after having a really weird dream, and the first emotion I fully felt was guilt, which lead me to my last post. After that, I felt better, and just went back and forth from good to bad all day long.

I went for a long drive with my brother and we didn't talk. I like the silence between us. It feels peaceful. But while we were driving, I got a new potential idea for a story. I'm going to play around with it a little bit, see if I can come up with some decent plot to go along with it, and then start to work on it. Hell, I might just start anyway, without knowing exactly how it's gonna go. Waiting is just wasting time.

I made a collage tonight. First one in... months? I don't know, I didn't enjoy making it. I was kind of angry the whole time. I don't know why. It isn't very good, either. I mean, how can it not be good? I'm not exactly sure, but I don't like it. Probably because I didn't have fun making it! Anyway, I don't know, it was all cut-outs from music magazines and shit like that, shit I don't really care about anymore. It just takes too much time to cut a bazillion tiny (or big) scraps from magazines and such. I should get started on that soon, though, and then actually make something when I'm a little happier and more relaxed.

I'm freaking exhausted. Hopefully I'll sleep better tonight. Goodnight!