Dear 2008,

Though I've come out with many good memories to hold close to me, you as a whole haven't been that great. Same with 2007, but we'll avoid going back there. It has been nothing but insanity since summer of '07, and I honestly expected it to end this year, but it didn't.

But now, on December 20th, I can feel that things have been winding down. My life is more calm, things are more in order, I'm getting to where I need to be. I'm hoping that 2009 brings change, and lots of it.

I want to shift who I am. I want to take more pictures. I want to step out of my comfort zone (repeatedly). I want to reconnect with old friends and make new friends. I want to figure out what I want to do. I want to have some kind of plan. I want to get things in order, but I don't want to know what's going to happen along the way. A life with no surprises would be so boring. But... I don't know, I just want to be sure things aren't the way they were this year. I want to start the new year right. I want to stay in love. I want to explore what that (love) means, and I want to expand it. I want to feel stable and secure in my own life. I want to be okay with the parts of me that I try to hide or conceal or ignore. I want to learn how to find the positive in every situation. I want to learn.

So... I feel like I've got quite the year ahead of me. Who knows if I'll actually accomplish anything I have planned, but it's all definitely worth a try.


(I borrowed the Dear 2008 idea from www.dancingmermaid.com!)