I love Steph.

I bet she won't see this, but she'll see the title. So hi, Steph. I love you.


Since I got soda in the keys of my NEO, I haven't been using it. It's too difficult to type. It was a sad, sad day. -_- I was seriously freaking the fuck out about it... But anyway, I emailed the support team people on Friday and they emailed me back, telling me that I can clean the keypad with a q-tip and rubbing alcohol, and if that doesn't work, I can send it back and get it fixed for $60.

Not too bad, I guess.

So I go into my room with the rubbing alcohol and a handful of q-tips, sit down at my desk, and start murdering the shit out of that sticky goo with my tools (that sounded kind of wrong).

Once I'd finished, I walked into the living room and said to my mother and brother, "Would you like to come to the family waiting room to hear how surgery went?"

They just stared at me, not quite sure what I was going on about.

"Okay," I said. "This is fine, since you don't want to move..."

No response.

"I cleaned my NEO."

"Oh. How'd that go?" My brother was playing his video game, didn't really care.

"I have to go back for a second surgery after it recovers from this one. It should work fine by then." In other words, let the alcohol dry, go back in ten or so minutes, clean it again, and it should be working fine. The keys were already working much, much better.

I'm happy!


Anyway, last night was really good. I'm weird and emotional, and it isn't a good thing, but I'm learning how to handle it.

I'm more interested now that I've been in a long time. Some old feelings that I've missed are coming back. I feel like I'm becoming myself again. That person I used to be before I let depression kind of take shit over.

Maybe my new medication is helping?

I'm still not sure. It's been over two weeks now, and I'm not feeling any of the side effects too strongly, and I'm not sure if my mood has changed, though my previous few statements might be reason to believe that they've improved, and aren't as severe.

Sometimes, though, I feel like I'm more emotional now than before. I don't know what that is.

I don't know. Everything feels good. Except for my throat. It hurts and I can barely swallow. :( Not cooooool.